Midnight Ramblings

Hazy clouds drift by
Shrouding my face tonight
Thoughts flit by
Every second tonight

I wonder where I lost myself
In the sea of life
The one I was I no longer am
Yet I crave the feel of me...

Scarred battle worn by life
I feel not the blood or sores
Some visible some invisible
I prepare myself for more

Is this what life is meant to be?
The life I dreamt as a kid
Dreams feel weary and false
What happened to the thread of life?

My silver lining
My rainbows and gold
My babies fast asleep
Snuggling while I stay out cold

Words come easy to me
My words my view
It's been a long time
Since I've given them the freedom so...

Why did I stop?
Why do I start?
I know not the answer to..
Yet glad I am that
My words are stripping free..

Gold and brown
Pink and blues
Colors I see around
Calm and strength
My choice I made for me