..so, I head home to Toronto shortly and I find myself back in the ol' habit of blogging about my midnight ramblings, so here is another random one...
Crossroads..
ever wonder why it is
I find myself at crossroads
over and over again
unstoppable, some force that brings me here
I believe my path has been set
I think my goals are concrete
I feel my emotions are secure
Then, I find myself at these crossroads again
The path behind me is littered with stories
both good and bad
The roads in front of me are alive with possibilities
each very different from the other
How do I chose?
Why should I chose?
Can I stand undecided at these crossroads
while others pas me by?
Unfortunately, it isn't in my nature
to let things stay undecided for long :)
I make my decisions with care and thought
but once made, I tend to see it through
Yet, the crossroads come
every other chance
it's a window of opportunity
with a view rather blurred
Big and small
these crossroads keep me going
good and bad
they make my story, I like to think, interesting...
By,
Angela Archana Vincent
Saturday, December 20, 2008
Monday, December 8, 2008
Loved one...
Bitter winds howl in my ear
as I huddle under the tarp
Paper against the cold floor
my only comfort against the wind
I left home when I was 16
angry at my parents
I thought they did not love me
so I would make it on my own
I wonder if they think of me
as they plan another holiday
with the entire family present
except for me...
I wonder if they are warm and cozy...
if my sister still snuggles next to my mom
as they watch my dad decorate the tree
I wonder if they miss me at all...
I hear strangers call me names
homeless, stranger, hobo...
the taunts are limitless...
yet they barely hurt anymore...
I once had a home
I once had a family
I too was once loved
I left it all for no one and unknown...
Christmas is a holiday for wishes
I hear children wishing for gifts
I wish I may, I wish I might
Make a wish to go home tonight
To be with my family
To hold them close
To let them tell me
I am their loved one...
By,
Angela Archana Vincent - 9.32pm December 8, 2008
as I huddle under the tarp
Paper against the cold floor
my only comfort against the wind
I left home when I was 16
angry at my parents
I thought they did not love me
so I would make it on my own
I wonder if they think of me
as they plan another holiday
with the entire family present
except for me...
I wonder if they are warm and cozy...
if my sister still snuggles next to my mom
as they watch my dad decorate the tree
I wonder if they miss me at all...
I hear strangers call me names
homeless, stranger, hobo...
the taunts are limitless...
yet they barely hurt anymore...
I once had a home
I once had a family
I too was once loved
I left it all for no one and unknown...
Christmas is a holiday for wishes
I hear children wishing for gifts
I wish I may, I wish I might
Make a wish to go home tonight
To be with my family
To hold them close
To let them tell me
I am their loved one...
By,
Angela Archana Vincent - 9.32pm December 8, 2008
Sunday, December 7, 2008
holiday cheer
so it's that time of the year again..when we all scramble to buy gifts, plan our holiday travels and are generally excited for the holidays or morose about being apart from family/friends!
The attack on Mumbai left quite a few friends devastated and very upset about the lack of appropriate action by the authorities in India. Yet, as usually witnessed following such terrible attacks, everyone seems to be moving on with their lives. The disparity of sentiments and actions always astound me about the capacity of the human mind to bear witness to tragedy yet balance it with light-heartedness.
On Friday, Hopkins had candle light vigils for the victims of the attacks. Yet, except for a select few, most everyone seems to be unaffected by the terror across the ocean. The rest of the world is scampering to buy christmas gifts, plan their travel and enjoy the next few weeks of fun, food and family.
I sound like a Hallmark card, don't I? To be honest, I love this time of the year..I get to relax, decorate the house for Christmas and generally eat lotsa good food. I never realized how much I love it, until I thought about going home this year. Two weeks and I'm counting down..I get to go home to my parents, my friends, sis nd jiju, Christmas gifts, decorations and lotsa food :D..
I wonder if I'll miss being at my place and doing things with new friends...yet the idea of staying at home with my family and friends has me so excited! I can't wait to land at Pearson, run out into the arrival area, meet my family and then..my most awaited dream..a Tim Hortons iced cap..hehehhehehe..my sister has promised to have one ready for me as soon as I land in TO...yey!!! (my mom has also warned me to dress very warm since its apparently been snowing constantly in TO and its freezing out there...yey!!!!!!)
The attack on Mumbai left quite a few friends devastated and very upset about the lack of appropriate action by the authorities in India. Yet, as usually witnessed following such terrible attacks, everyone seems to be moving on with their lives. The disparity of sentiments and actions always astound me about the capacity of the human mind to bear witness to tragedy yet balance it with light-heartedness.
On Friday, Hopkins had candle light vigils for the victims of the attacks. Yet, except for a select few, most everyone seems to be unaffected by the terror across the ocean. The rest of the world is scampering to buy christmas gifts, plan their travel and enjoy the next few weeks of fun, food and family.
I sound like a Hallmark card, don't I? To be honest, I love this time of the year..I get to relax, decorate the house for Christmas and generally eat lotsa good food. I never realized how much I love it, until I thought about going home this year. Two weeks and I'm counting down..I get to go home to my parents, my friends, sis nd jiju, Christmas gifts, decorations and lotsa food :D..
I wonder if I'll miss being at my place and doing things with new friends...yet the idea of staying at home with my family and friends has me so excited! I can't wait to land at Pearson, run out into the arrival area, meet my family and then..my most awaited dream..a Tim Hortons iced cap..hehehhehehe..my sister has promised to have one ready for me as soon as I land in TO...yey!!! (my mom has also warned me to dress very warm since its apparently been snowing constantly in TO and its freezing out there...yey!!!!!!)
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
Friday, October 31, 2008
Saturday, October 25, 2008
mood mimic..
have you ever notice how the weather seems to mimic your mood..I know, I know, a true metereologist will tell me, I'm being silly, weather does not mimic people's moods, it follows certain wind patterns, blabbedy blabbedy blah...
Yet, I love and despise the idea that I have a mood mimic. For example, I am in a really c****y mood today and my mood mimic seems just as dismal :D...that simple thought of a mood mimic helps restore my spirits somehow..lol...
Oh well, am off to cheer myself up a lil bit with some desi goodies I made yesterday..enjoy the weather ya all!!
Yet, I love and despise the idea that I have a mood mimic. For example, I am in a really c****y mood today and my mood mimic seems just as dismal :D...that simple thought of a mood mimic helps restore my spirits somehow..lol...
Oh well, am off to cheer myself up a lil bit with some desi goodies I made yesterday..enjoy the weather ya all!!
Monday, October 20, 2008
terrified innocence...
..my latest ramblings in the midst of an unwittingly entertaining financial accounting class, late Monday afternoon :)
Terrified innocence...
Terror on their faces
they huddle under the tarp
holding hands they tremble
children with tears in their eyes
Shrieks heard all around
as each one grows louder
they cringe and huddle closer
seeming to shrink as one
A river of blood
drenches the street under their feet
Their tears seem insurmountable...
All they want is the comfort of home.
A simple day
enjoyable in its simplicity
turned monstrous in a second
their innocence lost and peace shattered.
Running feet are all they see,
people screaming obscenities as they pass by
They retreat into themselves
muting the terror and the noise.
Mute eyes, clenched fists,
tears pour down their innocent faces
as they stare at the ignonimity
of being a child mute with terror.
A brief whimper
from the younger of the two...
quickly hushed by the older,
fear of recognition alive anew...
They hope it wasn't heard
by the brutes outside...
The wall their only friend
in a world suddenly gone awry.
Footsteps come thundering by...
and stops an inch from them...motionless they freeze
someone peeps under the tarp
and they scream in mutuality
Is it a friend?
Is it their family?
Is it a foe?
Do they live to know?
Innocence lost, terror their acquaintance
Does it matter if they live
When live in fear they always will...
Not for us to judge, the value of their life.
Children, our hope for tomorrow
Our innocence and our inspirations
their glow of immeasurable brightness
snatched away from us in a moment of terror...
By Angela Archana Vincent - 5.20pm Monday October 20th, 2008.
Terrified innocence...
Terror on their faces
they huddle under the tarp
holding hands they tremble
children with tears in their eyes
Shrieks heard all around
as each one grows louder
they cringe and huddle closer
seeming to shrink as one
A river of blood
drenches the street under their feet
Their tears seem insurmountable...
All they want is the comfort of home.
A simple day
enjoyable in its simplicity
turned monstrous in a second
their innocence lost and peace shattered.
Running feet are all they see,
people screaming obscenities as they pass by
They retreat into themselves
muting the terror and the noise.
Mute eyes, clenched fists,
tears pour down their innocent faces
as they stare at the ignonimity
of being a child mute with terror.
A brief whimper
from the younger of the two...
quickly hushed by the older,
fear of recognition alive anew...
They hope it wasn't heard
by the brutes outside...
The wall their only friend
in a world suddenly gone awry.
Footsteps come thundering by...
and stops an inch from them...motionless they freeze
someone peeps under the tarp
and they scream in mutuality
Is it a friend?
Is it their family?
Is it a foe?
Do they live to know?
Innocence lost, terror their acquaintance
Does it matter if they live
When live in fear they always will...
Not for us to judge, the value of their life.
Children, our hope for tomorrow
Our innocence and our inspirations
their glow of immeasurable brightness
snatched away from us in a moment of terror...
By Angela Archana Vincent - 5.20pm Monday October 20th, 2008.
Sunday, October 19, 2008
whether the weather will change....
yep, today's very mundane topic is whether the weather will change (pun intended)..and I mean, specifically in Baltimore. I've been talking to my family in P'burgh and Toronto, and the temp there is mid 40 and 50 F. In Baltimore, we are still experiencing late 70s to mid 80 F...booohooohooo :( I want colder climes. It's the end of October, and I demand the need to use my thick fall jacket, not a sweatshirt..uuuggghhh!!
The saddest part...not a single soul recognizes my wish in Baltimore..lol :D...all my friends are ecstatic at the mild temperatures. Oh well, poor souls, I guess they will never understand the pleasures of bundling up in your winter jacket and trundling to work in a feet or two of snow..AAAAhhhhhhh...I miss Toronto and our beautiful weather... hehehehe...
ooooh and yes, my Tim Hortons Iced Frapps..totally miss that too!! I have a standing order with my closest friend and my sister to get me to a Timmy's as soon as I land in Toronto..the dreams keep me going forth :D
The saddest part...not a single soul recognizes my wish in Baltimore..lol :D...all my friends are ecstatic at the mild temperatures. Oh well, poor souls, I guess they will never understand the pleasures of bundling up in your winter jacket and trundling to work in a feet or two of snow..AAAAhhhhhhh...I miss Toronto and our beautiful weather... hehehehe...
ooooh and yes, my Tim Hortons Iced Frapps..totally miss that too!! I have a standing order with my closest friend and my sister to get me to a Timmy's as soon as I land in Toronto..the dreams keep me going forth :D
Friday, October 10, 2008
other words...
Back to my boring life. Baltimore and Hopkins have truly allowed me to explore my individual choices. I've attended classes, policy discussions by congressmen and delegates, debates about malaria vaccine vs. control, desi get togethers and so much more. I've made so many friends, and become so close to a few people in such a short time. It's absolutely amazing! It's still a learning curve with regard to my own idiosyncrasies and what I feel I need to improve. Yet, I find not knwoing everything is a boon in itself. Oh well! As usual, I'll end my ramblings with these few words...
Wondering...
Lost in the garden,
he walks alone
looking at the flowers
he wonders what they are
he doesn't recognize beauty
he doesn't recognize colors
he doesn't recognize their fragrance
and yet he wonders what they are
he reaches a brook
gurgling waters tumble past
he walks alone
wondering what it is
he doesn's recognize sound
he doesn't recognize serenity
he doesn't recognize it's strength
and yet he wonders what it is
he suddenly pauses
his hand about to pluck a flower
his feet about to dip into the brook
he hears something that makes him pause
a sound he never heard before
music that makes him pause
freeze as if someone said "statue"
he awaits to hear it again
every note touches him
opens the world to him
in all its beautiful splendour
he suddenly doesn't wonder any more
his hand soothes the flower
instead of plucking it
his feet play in the brook
in knowledge rather than curiosity
the music he heard
is his ignorance being stripped away
self knowledge or taught otherwise
felt internally or realized externally
he no longer wonders
abt what it is
rather he knows himself
and hence the world around him
by Angela Archana Vincent at 11pm October 10th, 2008
Wondering...
Lost in the garden,
he walks alone
looking at the flowers
he wonders what they are
he doesn't recognize beauty
he doesn't recognize colors
he doesn't recognize their fragrance
and yet he wonders what they are
he reaches a brook
gurgling waters tumble past
he walks alone
wondering what it is
he doesn's recognize sound
he doesn't recognize serenity
he doesn't recognize it's strength
and yet he wonders what it is
he suddenly pauses
his hand about to pluck a flower
his feet about to dip into the brook
he hears something that makes him pause
a sound he never heard before
music that makes him pause
freeze as if someone said "statue"
he awaits to hear it again
every note touches him
opens the world to him
in all its beautiful splendour
he suddenly doesn't wonder any more
his hand soothes the flower
instead of plucking it
his feet play in the brook
in knowledge rather than curiosity
the music he heard
is his ignorance being stripped away
self knowledge or taught otherwise
felt internally or realized externally
he no longer wonders
abt what it is
rather he knows himself
and hence the world around him
by Angela Archana Vincent at 11pm October 10th, 2008
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