I see colors
blue, gray, pink and black
mixed in with a dash of white
the colors of the murky skies..
As words threaten my life..
words spoken by others..
words I wish I had spoken..
words I fear I will speak soon...
Life's ambiguities I'm not sure I understand
Fathom, like, comprehend, approve of..
yet we are all forced to expand our horizons
into the murky skies, even as we desist..
What can I do to minimize the destruction?
If there is any to be visualized..
What can I do to visualize the damage..
if what is lost is internal and personal...
Depth of words
Depth of thoughts
Depth of emotions
I lack nothing thereof
Yet expressing the most basic words
turn the colors darker and drearier
The blacks and grays overwhelm the pink and blues
turning the murky skies into the dark night...
By,
Angela Archana Vincent
Tuesday, June 9, 2009
Monday, May 4, 2009
ravaged...
Ravaged by the world
I hide in the shadows
a mere whisper
in a world of similar souls...
It is so easy to stand by
and let anger consume you
Yet so difficult to articulate
the emotion into concise words...
The world in its entirety
shrinks until it exists in finite space
an air bubble perfectly proportioned
encapsulating that one conversation...
Memory so faint
I barely know what I say
Anger makes me whisper incoherently
and the ravaged becomes the ravager...
Best,
Angela Archana Vincent
I hide in the shadows
a mere whisper
in a world of similar souls...
It is so easy to stand by
and let anger consume you
Yet so difficult to articulate
the emotion into concise words...
The world in its entirety
shrinks until it exists in finite space
an air bubble perfectly proportioned
encapsulating that one conversation...
Memory so faint
I barely know what I say
Anger makes me whisper incoherently
and the ravaged becomes the ravager...
Best,
Angela Archana Vincent
Thursday, April 30, 2009
spring blossoms, road trips, grad school and so much more...
I can't believe that I'm at the end of my grad coursework, and am headed back into the typical workforce in 4 weeks flat..where did time fly by?
Third and Fourth terms went by in a jiffy and I'm looking at the last two weeks of classes already..yikes..two weeks is right!! Hmmm...wonder if I should slow down a bit and enjoy student life while it lasts :)))...
Oh well..I guess the memories of impromptu visits to a friend's at 11pm, hanging out with the girls watching a movie, or the rather long road trip with my family from Toronto to Baltimore and on to DC will form the crux of my grad school life..not bad at all.. :) .. and since I'm headed away from Baltimore and those gorgeous friends who kept me sane while I was here..a toast to them all...
Spring Blossoms..
Spring blossoms bright and cheery
I see them all around me
they whither away during my favourite season
but watching them brightens my day
Friends like that are many around me
Those who keep me company
in the dark of the night
but disappear during my cheery days...
A toast if I may...
To those who listen to me whine
To those who give me sound advice
To those who share their stories with me
To those who are good friends of mine
To those spring blossoms who are precious and few :))
By,
Angela Archana Vincent.
Third and Fourth terms went by in a jiffy and I'm looking at the last two weeks of classes already..yikes..two weeks is right!! Hmmm...wonder if I should slow down a bit and enjoy student life while it lasts :)))...
Oh well..I guess the memories of impromptu visits to a friend's at 11pm, hanging out with the girls watching a movie, or the rather long road trip with my family from Toronto to Baltimore and on to DC will form the crux of my grad school life..not bad at all.. :) .. and since I'm headed away from Baltimore and those gorgeous friends who kept me sane while I was here..a toast to them all...
Spring Blossoms..
Spring blossoms bright and cheery
I see them all around me
they whither away during my favourite season
but watching them brightens my day
Friends like that are many around me
Those who keep me company
in the dark of the night
but disappear during my cheery days...
A toast if I may...
To those who listen to me whine
To those who give me sound advice
To those who share their stories with me
To those who are good friends of mine
To those spring blossoms who are precious and few :))
By,
Angela Archana Vincent.
Friday, March 27, 2009
Turmoil
calm waters never last
ever wonder why that is?
change is like rain
predictable sometimes, rarely always so...
struggles seem endless
tears fathomless and useless
simple pleasures help us daily
to forget the turmoil and move beyond...
a new dawn seems so close
the night past barely a blur
my memory so faint, is it really so?
I doubt..I doubt..the turmoil and dawn are intertwined so...
By Angela Archana Vincent
ever wonder why that is?
change is like rain
predictable sometimes, rarely always so...
struggles seem endless
tears fathomless and useless
simple pleasures help us daily
to forget the turmoil and move beyond...
a new dawn seems so close
the night past barely a blur
my memory so faint, is it really so?
I doubt..I doubt..the turmoil and dawn are intertwined so...
By Angela Archana Vincent
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
2009..month 2, post 1
Sigh..it's 2009 already, I'm back in Baltimore and it's February 4th..yikes!! where did the time go? I still feel like I'm in Toronto waiting for the vacation to set-in :D
Oh well, it's true what they say..time flies by, when you are too busy to take note. The holiday season was chaotic, fun, stressful and relaxing in equal measure. Being back in Baltimore took a little getting used to, but home feels good! Classes and deadlines keep me on my toes, the interviews for next year's field placement keep my busy busy busy...and my family keeps me grounded in reality :)!
Life's been pretty good, for the most part. The weather in Baltimore has been quite perfect - a few cold days, mostly 'fall' weather - my favourite...The next few weeks are crucial and exciting - so a toast to warm memories and exuberant anticipation :D
Oh, and yep, I'm already planning my Spring Break...vacation, here I come!!
Oh well, it's true what they say..time flies by, when you are too busy to take note. The holiday season was chaotic, fun, stressful and relaxing in equal measure. Being back in Baltimore took a little getting used to, but home feels good! Classes and deadlines keep me on my toes, the interviews for next year's field placement keep my busy busy busy...and my family keeps me grounded in reality :)!
Life's been pretty good, for the most part. The weather in Baltimore has been quite perfect - a few cold days, mostly 'fall' weather - my favourite...The next few weeks are crucial and exciting - so a toast to warm memories and exuberant anticipation :D
Oh, and yep, I'm already planning my Spring Break...vacation, here I come!!
Tuesday, December 30, 2008
2008
I am back in Toronto, and it seems like I never left this place. I guess there is something to be said about home and the familiarity. I landed in Toronto with the flu, and this past week has been somewhat miserable, yet I probably couldn't have chosen a better time or place to fall sick :) Now, I'm feeling 90% better, and definitely looking forward to the rest of this year :D.
2008 has been a pretty amazing year for me, a lot of twists and turns, some highs I never thought I'd reach or aim for, and a few lows, nonetheless it's been a good year for me. This year has witnessed a lot of changes in my life and in the lives of people I know. Personally, I've made new friends, travelled to different places on my own, tried and failed at so many things, yet I've also succeeded at others, learnt a few hard lessons along the way, about myself and those around me. I finally got to see my beautiful niece and nephews in India, spent a long vacation with my grandmother without worrying about work or school, started grad school, made some lasting friendships, succeeded at cooking for more than 3 people simultaneously :).
As I look back at the past year, the most important thing seems to be my yen to look forward to the future. My experiences in 2008 have brought me to this point, where I have so much more to look forward to than I would if I just looked behind me.
Isn't it so fascinating, the way we emphasize our highs and lows based on the people we share it with? Be it our parents, sisters, brothers, cousins, family, friends, spouse/partner, or colleagues, the moments we remember, the memories we create, the emotions we feel, are all the stronger because of the people we associate with those moments, memories and emotions.
Here's to my last blog for the year, and hoping everyone has a fabulous 2009 with people you love and trust. Cheers!
Toronto...
tender flakes swirling by
melting as they touch my cheek
I feel the ice in my veins
even as I try to catch the drops on my tongue
I face the sun
with my eyes closed
and arms outstretched
yearning to reach the warmth
Snow storm all around me
Blinding white in its beauty
The sun shining bright
keeping the illusion of warmth nearby
People thunder by
snuggled warm, as they trudge to work
A snow storm is all in a day's work
for those around me today
A land of diverse natures
the first home I know
Snow storms, wind chill, bright and cold
Toronto, in all its different flavors...
By Angela Archana Vincent
2008 has been a pretty amazing year for me, a lot of twists and turns, some highs I never thought I'd reach or aim for, and a few lows, nonetheless it's been a good year for me. This year has witnessed a lot of changes in my life and in the lives of people I know. Personally, I've made new friends, travelled to different places on my own, tried and failed at so many things, yet I've also succeeded at others, learnt a few hard lessons along the way, about myself and those around me. I finally got to see my beautiful niece and nephews in India, spent a long vacation with my grandmother without worrying about work or school, started grad school, made some lasting friendships, succeeded at cooking for more than 3 people simultaneously :).
As I look back at the past year, the most important thing seems to be my yen to look forward to the future. My experiences in 2008 have brought me to this point, where I have so much more to look forward to than I would if I just looked behind me.
Isn't it so fascinating, the way we emphasize our highs and lows based on the people we share it with? Be it our parents, sisters, brothers, cousins, family, friends, spouse/partner, or colleagues, the moments we remember, the memories we create, the emotions we feel, are all the stronger because of the people we associate with those moments, memories and emotions.
Here's to my last blog for the year, and hoping everyone has a fabulous 2009 with people you love and trust. Cheers!
Toronto...
tender flakes swirling by
melting as they touch my cheek
I feel the ice in my veins
even as I try to catch the drops on my tongue
I face the sun
with my eyes closed
and arms outstretched
yearning to reach the warmth
Snow storm all around me
Blinding white in its beauty
The sun shining bright
keeping the illusion of warmth nearby
People thunder by
snuggled warm, as they trudge to work
A snow storm is all in a day's work
for those around me today
A land of diverse natures
the first home I know
Snow storms, wind chill, bright and cold
Toronto, in all its different flavors...
By Angela Archana Vincent
Saturday, December 20, 2008
midnight ramblings...
..so, I head home to Toronto shortly and I find myself back in the ol' habit of blogging about my midnight ramblings, so here is another random one...
Crossroads..
ever wonder why it is
I find myself at crossroads
over and over again
unstoppable, some force that brings me here
I believe my path has been set
I think my goals are concrete
I feel my emotions are secure
Then, I find myself at these crossroads again
The path behind me is littered with stories
both good and bad
The roads in front of me are alive with possibilities
each very different from the other
How do I chose?
Why should I chose?
Can I stand undecided at these crossroads
while others pas me by?
Unfortunately, it isn't in my nature
to let things stay undecided for long :)
I make my decisions with care and thought
but once made, I tend to see it through
Yet, the crossroads come
every other chance
it's a window of opportunity
with a view rather blurred
Big and small
these crossroads keep me going
good and bad
they make my story, I like to think, interesting...
By,
Angela Archana Vincent
Crossroads..
ever wonder why it is
I find myself at crossroads
over and over again
unstoppable, some force that brings me here
I believe my path has been set
I think my goals are concrete
I feel my emotions are secure
Then, I find myself at these crossroads again
The path behind me is littered with stories
both good and bad
The roads in front of me are alive with possibilities
each very different from the other
How do I chose?
Why should I chose?
Can I stand undecided at these crossroads
while others pas me by?
Unfortunately, it isn't in my nature
to let things stay undecided for long :)
I make my decisions with care and thought
but once made, I tend to see it through
Yet, the crossroads come
every other chance
it's a window of opportunity
with a view rather blurred
Big and small
these crossroads keep me going
good and bad
they make my story, I like to think, interesting...
By,
Angela Archana Vincent
Monday, December 8, 2008
Loved one...
Bitter winds howl in my ear
as I huddle under the tarp
Paper against the cold floor
my only comfort against the wind
I left home when I was 16
angry at my parents
I thought they did not love me
so I would make it on my own
I wonder if they think of me
as they plan another holiday
with the entire family present
except for me...
I wonder if they are warm and cozy...
if my sister still snuggles next to my mom
as they watch my dad decorate the tree
I wonder if they miss me at all...
I hear strangers call me names
homeless, stranger, hobo...
the taunts are limitless...
yet they barely hurt anymore...
I once had a home
I once had a family
I too was once loved
I left it all for no one and unknown...
Christmas is a holiday for wishes
I hear children wishing for gifts
I wish I may, I wish I might
Make a wish to go home tonight
To be with my family
To hold them close
To let them tell me
I am their loved one...
By,
Angela Archana Vincent - 9.32pm December 8, 2008
as I huddle under the tarp
Paper against the cold floor
my only comfort against the wind
I left home when I was 16
angry at my parents
I thought they did not love me
so I would make it on my own
I wonder if they think of me
as they plan another holiday
with the entire family present
except for me...
I wonder if they are warm and cozy...
if my sister still snuggles next to my mom
as they watch my dad decorate the tree
I wonder if they miss me at all...
I hear strangers call me names
homeless, stranger, hobo...
the taunts are limitless...
yet they barely hurt anymore...
I once had a home
I once had a family
I too was once loved
I left it all for no one and unknown...
Christmas is a holiday for wishes
I hear children wishing for gifts
I wish I may, I wish I might
Make a wish to go home tonight
To be with my family
To hold them close
To let them tell me
I am their loved one...
By,
Angela Archana Vincent - 9.32pm December 8, 2008
Sunday, December 7, 2008
holiday cheer
so it's that time of the year again..when we all scramble to buy gifts, plan our holiday travels and are generally excited for the holidays or morose about being apart from family/friends!
The attack on Mumbai left quite a few friends devastated and very upset about the lack of appropriate action by the authorities in India. Yet, as usually witnessed following such terrible attacks, everyone seems to be moving on with their lives. The disparity of sentiments and actions always astound me about the capacity of the human mind to bear witness to tragedy yet balance it with light-heartedness.
On Friday, Hopkins had candle light vigils for the victims of the attacks. Yet, except for a select few, most everyone seems to be unaffected by the terror across the ocean. The rest of the world is scampering to buy christmas gifts, plan their travel and enjoy the next few weeks of fun, food and family.
I sound like a Hallmark card, don't I? To be honest, I love this time of the year..I get to relax, decorate the house for Christmas and generally eat lotsa good food. I never realized how much I love it, until I thought about going home this year. Two weeks and I'm counting down..I get to go home to my parents, my friends, sis nd jiju, Christmas gifts, decorations and lotsa food :D..
I wonder if I'll miss being at my place and doing things with new friends...yet the idea of staying at home with my family and friends has me so excited! I can't wait to land at Pearson, run out into the arrival area, meet my family and then..my most awaited dream..a Tim Hortons iced cap..hehehhehehe..my sister has promised to have one ready for me as soon as I land in TO...yey!!! (my mom has also warned me to dress very warm since its apparently been snowing constantly in TO and its freezing out there...yey!!!!!!)
The attack on Mumbai left quite a few friends devastated and very upset about the lack of appropriate action by the authorities in India. Yet, as usually witnessed following such terrible attacks, everyone seems to be moving on with their lives. The disparity of sentiments and actions always astound me about the capacity of the human mind to bear witness to tragedy yet balance it with light-heartedness.
On Friday, Hopkins had candle light vigils for the victims of the attacks. Yet, except for a select few, most everyone seems to be unaffected by the terror across the ocean. The rest of the world is scampering to buy christmas gifts, plan their travel and enjoy the next few weeks of fun, food and family.
I sound like a Hallmark card, don't I? To be honest, I love this time of the year..I get to relax, decorate the house for Christmas and generally eat lotsa good food. I never realized how much I love it, until I thought about going home this year. Two weeks and I'm counting down..I get to go home to my parents, my friends, sis nd jiju, Christmas gifts, decorations and lotsa food :D..
I wonder if I'll miss being at my place and doing things with new friends...yet the idea of staying at home with my family and friends has me so excited! I can't wait to land at Pearson, run out into the arrival area, meet my family and then..my most awaited dream..a Tim Hortons iced cap..hehehhehehe..my sister has promised to have one ready for me as soon as I land in TO...yey!!! (my mom has also warned me to dress very warm since its apparently been snowing constantly in TO and its freezing out there...yey!!!!!!)
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
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